Diploma in Beauty Therapy

So i finally got sorted and kicked my butt into gear and enrolled to do my diploma in beauty therapy, start on monday!! Soo excited but equally as scared. Fingers crossed i can do it! Been a long time since ive put my brain into anything other than mummy mode..but i really need to start to find a "career" for myself to help provide for my kiddies better:)

Im back!

Hello there, if anyones out there!:) Ive been very sporadic with my page over the years.. i started this to let out my sadness but even typing it on here was too painful for me.. had to keep it put away in my mind to be able to get through the days:) So flash forward nearly 2 years.. i still have that sadness with me, maybe never goes away? but i have  a lovely boyfriend now, kids are doing well, ive moved a bunch and had a few more life experiences and lessons along the way! Single mummy hood is still not a easy thing, and its a daily struggle, but definitely rewarding. So ill be posting random tidbits here and there, to have for memories sake.. and entertainment fodder for anyone whos interested:) Ill leave you with something i found on Pinterest :)

Blugh..

Bad day yesterday.. well started off ok, i decided to have a mini halloween day for the kids.. dressups, treasure hunt for lollies, scary kids movie. The ex came up to visit the girls and we got along fine for theday, playing with th ekids but when he went to leave i started to cry. Today he goes to fiji for a week with her. Ive been dreading this week for months, and its gonna be a tough week to get through. May sound silly .. but its because when we used to travel together those times, are some of my happiest memories in life. I loved it. And when i went to bali recently wiht a friend the whole time, i missed him and was wishing i was sharing it with him. Its not fair that him and her get to have all this fun, andhave such a free, happy life with all that they wanted.. and eveerything for me has gotten so much worse. Why did they get to win. :(

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#5 The year of Evie

My beautiful baby girl.. my saving grace as i call her.( her middle name is grace). When my ex had the affair and left me, sometimes id think i shouldnt be pregnant, this is going to be hard, how can i handle another child.. etc etc. I was wrong. Thank thank thank god, i was pregnant at the time of the affair and him leaving me. It helped keep me that little bit calmer or do anything silly as i was carrying her. Having her keep me busy all day, up all night, make me smile with her cuteness when i think i couldnt possibly smile that day. SHe has been a amazing beautiful distraction this past year. All my kids have but her especially. Everything happens for a reason, and i fell pregnant with her, for her to be my saving grace.. She really did save me, i cant explain enough how much she has. 

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#4 Bella and Dylans birthdays

My daughter bella turned 5 and my son Dylan turned 8.. seeing as i have up braydens video from march ill put up the ones i did for bella and dylans bdays:)

Make a video - it's fun, easy and free!
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Make a video - it's fun, easy and free!
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#3 Weight loss

Since i had my youngest evie, nearly a year ago, i have lost 30 kilos. Although past few weeks i have put on 2 kilos! I would love to say its from exercise and a healthy diet..Its not. Its from sadness, stress, nausea, being busy with the kids, not having the money for takeaway and junk like i once used to, and of course the weight loss that comes naturally after having a baby.  I still have a few kilos i need to lose to reach my goal, and i really really need to start working out and tone. After 4 kids ...its aint pretty:) I would love to buy myself a new wardrobe to celebrate.. but thats not a option.. I have sold some of my bigger clothes for some extra money though:) The past few days i have been starting to work out, as i would love to change my shape a little.. my butt is no flat :-/ and i really need to tone my stomach and arms. I will no doubt update with my progress:)

This makes me smile...as its SO me..:)

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#2      Bali

I went on a trip to bali a few months ago with a friend who was planning her wedding.. the flight was a gift from my brother.. so grateful :) My first time there and my second time overseas. I felt a bit emotional going over, not having my usual travel partner, and when seeing sights wishing i could share it with him.. I missed my bubba girl also, and the other kids of course! I was only there for 3 days, and didnt see alot, so will have to go back again one day:)

Did alot of this...

which resulted in this..

ALot of very friendly faces who loved having their picture taken:)

Tried alot of new foods...

(I got bali belly once i returned home, no idea if it was from too much trying of new foods or not..;))

I got this done even though i really really didnt want to and HATED it!!

And of course did plenty of this..

Did i mention i NEED another holiday...hopefully i can find a way to get away one day soon:)