Blugh..

Bad day yesterday.. well started off ok, i decided to have a mini halloween day for the kids.. dressups, treasure hunt for lollies, scary kids movie. The ex came up to visit the girls and we got along fine for theday, playing with th ekids but when he went to leave i started to cry. Today he goes to fiji for a week with her. Ive been dreading this week for months, and its gonna be a tough week to get through. May sound silly .. but its because when we used to travel together those times, are some of my happiest memories in life. I loved it. And when i went to bali recently wiht a friend the whole time, i missed him and was wishing i was sharing it with him. Its not fair that him and her get to have all this fun, andhave such a free, happy life with all that they wanted.. and eveerything for me has gotten so much worse. Why did they get to win. :(