Even more devastated..

:(:(:( today i found out that my ex leaving me again wasnt for the reasons said but caus he went back to the girl he cheated on me with.  There in love blah blah blah blah.. There is no way in hell i will be letting my girls around that skank. Im so devasted.. feel so sick at the thought of them being together.. no idea how ill sleep.. or even anything.  When will all this pain and heartbreak stop?:(