Need a boost..

Im still feeling so blah.. this nausea is shocking.. and im so tired of being miserable and moping around. I try and brush it off and think of something else then ill see something that will remind me of the ex and the nausea hits again.. He came up last night to see the kids and i broke down with him. He wasnt very caring about it as he hates when hes made to feel guilty(grr) but also i started off all wrong.. i was giving him attitude with things and pissing him off to start with.. and then broke down so he was already sick of me when it started. Im just so stressed every part of my life is hard. The kids r driving me bonkers, finances are bad, im still holding on to my baby weight which is yuk, friends and family are irritating me.. im missing the ex. I need something to give me a little boost.. something to look forward to? something to help me feel better? Im trying to think of some ways to make money from home.. have a few ideas rolling around in my head but ironically.. i need money to make money.. agh..